Part 2: List of Things (10 categories, 10 lists, 10 paragraphs)

1.Things I am afraid of
Spiders
large crowds
dying
dying alone
getting kidnapped
     It might sound weird to here a teenager say this but i hate to  in large crowds. My reasons might sound weird but they all basically tie into one reason. You see I have autism and so as an autistic person I hate to be in places were there are so many people because I worry that some how. ill do something and people will think i am weird. When i was younger i use to freeze at the thought of a crowd. but as i have gotten older I have learned to control my fear. Ironically most guys who hang with me don't seem to think i have autism. Because Ive learned to hide it well enough to get by, But than again guess crowds and my perception of them seem to change as i get older.
2.Things I like.
candy
girls
video games
sleep
English class
history
   When i was younger i use to always wonder why teenager slept so much. Until that is I became a teenager myself . I than realized that sleep and being a teen went hand in hand. I would sleep as i became a teenager so long that at times. I would be tried from sleep. I don't know if its possible to be tired of sleep. But than again I guess anything is possible. My cousins are way better sleepers than me. My cousins when i was younger would sleep till 3,4 in the afternoon. i couldn't believe it. However looking at it now as an older 18 year old. i realize something. Sleep is beautiful.
3.Things that make me cry
last episode of wonder years
the notebook
Marley and me
seeing sad love movies
seeing animals getting killed
realizing i have good friends
    So this is probably going to sound weird. But yes the last episode of the wonder years does make me cry. My reasons are various but my main reason i tell people. Is because in the last episode he says. That's it childhood is over. As i look at my childhood. i feel a sense of sadness as i kiss away old times. I miss the innocents of being a child. Of being careless. I mean i feel like we grow up to fast to even enjoy childhood. Towards the end when the camera looks at the town. I just think that's like my town. And maybe that in a way makes me cry. Because that's it. We grow up so fast and before long were adults and to think life goes by that fast. Always makes me cry.
4.Places I loved
Cape cod
Vermont
my childhood
my school
my neighborhood
    Nothing in my mind can be as beautiful to me as the bonds that have tied me to my neighborhood. its an average neighborhood. But like the wonder years, Its been the place I've grown up in. I've scene things change in my area but the faces were the one's. I never forgot. The faces of my friends and companions. Were a close knit area. In a time when I feel as thought other areas aren't. Its my home and when i come back. I could smell the salt watter in the air the liveliness of the birds and I know in my heart. That I am home.
5.Wishes I've had
To go to the moon
own a sports car
date a model
be a prince
meet napoleon
    This might sound weird. But i went through  a phase in my life. When i was younger. When i wanted to meet napoleon. I had always been a history nerd. So when i want through the period of which i wanted to meet napoleon. I think my mom and smiled and this one is gonna be a lawyer. I remember begging her to meet Napoleon. She knew that wasn't possible. So she made a compromise. I would meet Napoleon. Of which ironical i did meet Napoleon. He was 4'9 and stood quite still. That is in the madame tussiaus wax museum. I never forget that moment. Looking back at now. It explains alot to me on where my love for history came from.
6.Things I've always wanted to do
sky dive
go to Paris
eat a crocodile
ride in nascar
     It might not seem like a big deal. However I have always wanted to go to Paris. I've never been there and maybe a lack of being there is why I would like to go back. My genealogy is French. Or at least that's what my folks think. It doesn't seem like I might be France since I look more Spanish than french. But my last name doesn't seem to lie in this aspect. I always wondered if maybe my great grandpa was from Paris. Maybe he was and that's why i would like to go to Paris. Or maybe I just that classy. Paris is the classy capital of the world. In whichever case. I would love to just go to Paris. And maybe go back to the place that started it all for my family. In the city of love or should i say the city were i might be from.
7.10 things if i could go to the future i would see
Who I would marry or be with
any possible children
what happens to my parents
How Michael ends up
what ever happened to my high school teachers
What happens to my sister
How do I die
Did i die happy
Will i be something big
Will i change the world
    You might think that most teenagers don't think about what there contribution to the world will be. But I think about my case all the time. I mean what will I give the world means alot to me. Its something that in this way. Maybe I'm human like everyone else. I look at the future. And all i think. is I hope there is enough room for me to do something great one day. I don't know if there. But if there is than maybe i could be the next newton/
8.7 things i don't want to see front the future
How i will I die
if any future kids die
how my parents die
If there is another 9/11
The next world war 3
Anything sad in my life
Anything bad that happens to my friends
     There's alot of bad I don't want to see in my future. So if its any comfort. I would say the thing i don't want to see ironically is how i will die. I mean as a teenager. The essence of being  a teenager. Is that you believe. That you will be young forever. Which is why i don't want to see how i will die. I know that I will eventually die. But since i know i will. I just want to think that while I'm alive. I could do something that will change the world. Maybe I wont change the world. But the thought of me dying scares me to the core. Because I've enjoyed life to much to see it go away. I mean alot has happened in my lifetime. That I have enjoyed and continue to enjoy. Which is why i wouldn't want to see how i would die.
9. People Who are my hero's
My parents
Bill Gates
Warner Van bruan
My teachers
      Ironically the moment I discovered what a hero was. Was the day I discovered about Bill Gates. He was my hero in every sense of the word. I learned about Bill Gates while in 4th grade. I was a reader and so while most kids were looking at comic books for there hero's. My hero was out there in the world. That is he was real. He didn't have any special powers short of being an average guy. He was a billionaire and maybe money was his power. But it wasn't. To me he was simple like me. A true American millionaire story of someone who worked hard like me. I loved it. His story which i hoped would be my own. Wasn't lost as I got older. In fact while most kids come to lose there passion for there Hero's. Mine hasn't. To me Bill Gates is still my hero and probably will be till I enter college.
10. People i wish I could have met for like a day and than said goodbye
Al Capone
tom cruise
Ralph Lauren
Benedict Arnold
a solder landing on the battlefield of d day
     He might have gone down in history as being a traitor to this nation. But I think to meet Benedict Arnold for a day would be quite interesting. i would pick at his mind and ask him dumb questions that only teenage guys could ask. Like did you enjoy having the attention of the ladies? Did you ever feel dumb for losing the war?  Dumb questions like these are reserved for maybe my stupid thoughts. I don't think he would mind if i asked these questions. Benedict Arnold is revered as a traitor but sometimes i wonder if he ever felt like he made a mistake. I think we all make dumb mistakes. And my friend Benedict Arnold problabbly did the same thing. But he isnt bad. I think I would rewrite history for him. So that maybe he woudlnt go down as a traitor. That would be awsome.